ladykatza

most of you have given up hope that i might actually produce something interesting to read. wondering if that for some reason the children haven’t said or done anything interesting, so even that hasn’t gotten posted.

well, the real reason is that i ended up having to have two MRI’s done to find out what’s wrong and why i hurt so fucking much all the damn time. i have a herniated disk. i’m on anti-inflamatories, pain meds, physical therapy, and chiropractic care. i’ve been given an 80% chance of full recover on this alone, if no improvement after about four weeks, i have to get injections, and after that, its surgery.

i’m going for the 80% here. which means… in the meantime i’m not allowed to lift more than 10 pounds, stoop, or do a lot of twisting. no running, no jogging (not that i was doing that anyway), no giving the kids piggy back rides. no vacumming… no mopping… so really i’m useless at the moment. does anyone want to come over and help me with my flower beds?

dad has been in the hospital twice since mom’s been out, and my school schedule has been all messed up. i’m not doing as well as i was last sememster, so i’m trying to cut my losses and try again. these things use to happen to me before when i was in school, i’d get discouraged… that sort of thing. this time, i’ll take a break for me, get well, and start again with renewed vigor. this has been a lesson in learning to take care of myself. apparently something i haven’t been very good at.

there are some good things happening. we were able to get the kids a playset for their collective early birthday present. something outside for them to play on, so i can say “go outside and blow off some steam”. i currently have a two foot long and foot deep hole in my backyard because of this. as of yet, no burried treasure has been found. i think i might plant something there.

Current Mood: frustrated, yet somehow relieved