ladykatza

and that year will be 2006.

ok, so the GOOD things that happened to me:

i got a new, better, and much more awesome job
i got a new car
i’m back in school, and my first semester rocked
my husband and kids are in good health
my father had his cataracts removed and can see much better
i made a couple new “pen pal” friends

i have good feelings about this year to come. life is never easy, but sometimes its more fun than others. i have grown as a person, and learned from my mistakes.

i’m not one for new year resolutions anymore, but it seems to be a tradition. last year i made a resolution to start keeping a calendar with important information. i wrote all the birthdays i had in there. i mentioned to a friend i had made a resolution to start keeping track of these things.

she said, “i’m not good about birthday cards and things.”

to which i replied, “oh, i’m not either. i just wrote it down this year, next year i’ll actually try to send them.”

one step at a time.

so, beside remembering to SEND the cards, my other resolution is to get in shape. i’m not fat (yet), but i’m very out of shape. i had started exercising, riding my bike, eating really well… i was feeling good and losing weight. then i fell while carrying my daughter down the stairs. she had just turned one and i was afraid of dropping or hurting her, so i held her close to my chest and took the fall on my hip.

it didn’t hurt that bad… until later. i have been in situations where i was in so much pain i couldn’t move, i was crying, it really, really fucking hurt. my chiropractor almost sent me to the emergency room. i got through it, but i stopped being so physically active. its showing.

i don’t like it.

so, i’m feeling better. i know what sorts of things i can do and not do now. i am already working on it.

my life has not been as hard as many, but it hasn’t been easy. i know people my age that aren’t adults yet because they’ve never had to deal with crisis (or refuse to deal with them). they have not yet been shown the door.

“isn’t it amazing how much mature wisdom is often mistaken for being too tired?” - robert a. heinlein

Current Mood: determined

Current Music: my cat snoring