ladykatza

so i can’t sleep. usually i just sort of lay there and think, and toss, and turn, and work myself up into a tizzy. tonight i decided to get up and fix a cup of tea. then i realized the kitchen had been neglected. don’t really want to wake up tomorrow, my first day back to work after a 5 day weekend, to a messy kitchen. so i cleaned it.

then fixed a cup of tea.

so… to those of you that buy Celestial Seasonings ™ tea, you’ve probably read the quotes on the box. they are hidden in all kinds of interesting places, so it becomes a fun game of hide and seek while you wait for water to boil. tonight i find on this box of tea the following quote:

“This is what I want from now on: a slower pace, a more centered existence, and the feeling of perfect happiness to be found in the moments I come home to myself.” -Linda Weltner

i had a conversation with someone that i had met briefly at Earthlink. one of the people that came to train us when they closed the other call center. he lives in L.A. now. he told me he didn’t like the holidays because it was stressful and sucked.. yadda yadda. it made me realize that this year i wasn’t that stressed. i did what i could, i spent time with family, and i let the rest go. the time with family is the important part right now, because there are several people near and dear to me that i don’t know how much time i have left with them. its something that i push out of my mind because i can’t worry about these things. worrying about them just makes life in the meantime more stressful.

we have too much stress in our lives as it is. you know… i just had a thought. i don’t think we work MORE so much as DIFFERENTLY than in generations past. life has changed so much that we don’t have coping mechanisms. we’ve forgotten how to relax. how to have a cup of tea and wait for water to boil.

in my dreams of upgrading this house, my new deck would have a covered arbor area with growing, flowering vines and a nice table to sit and enjoy the outside. there would be bird feeders galore so i can watch the birds fly around with lovely noised to go with good smells. i’d invite my girlfriends over for tea parties in the garden.

Current Mood: reflective