ladykatza

i was elated yesterday to be finally be done with all the paper work of leaving my old employer. today after class i have a completely different feeling. i am suddenly overwhelmed. so distracted i have been that i have let so many things fall to the way-side. i’ve ignored relationships, household responsibilities, and myself. i’ve been losing and misplacing items on a daily basis, something i am unaccustomed to doing.

i found myself walking out of the student center wanting to sit down and cry, wanting to go home and crawl into daecon’s arms and have a pity party. i even called him. “no,” he said, “do what you need to get done and come back to me with a clear head.”

i love him.

so going to class during the day, i am with all the young right-out-of-high-school types and the age difference shows at times. so inexperienced these younglings are that even though i know i am not really that old, i feel it. mostly i’ve found myself talking to the international students. that, and i get along with my professors more than my classmates.

that aside, i’ve gotten some of this out of my head. i’ve sent a few follow-up emails to the people from the job fair, i have a second interview with another company i’d love to work for (talked about that before). oh, and i have an appointment with the career counceling center here in one hour. so, my 15 minutes of slack time is up. now i study.

Current Mood: plodding along one step at a time