ladykatza

with all the hurricanes and flooding going on, its ironic that i’m praying for rain. there’s been this hazy smog over the city for weeks now and my sinuses are telling me they want a vacation. i’m watching the leaves fall on my yard and wishing that the tempature would catch up with the rest of it. i long for autumn.

i went down to mom and dad’s yesterday. they certainly have a great many holes in their walls from fixing the busted water pipes. dad had fallen through the ceiling at one point, and while its patched up, it looks something aweful. dad’s always been handy about fixing those sorts of things, so i’m sure it will be looking right soon enough.

speaking of fixing things, there’s a number of miscellaneous things around this house that need attention. we’re proud owners of a new lawnmower, and this means we’ll be able to keep up with the yard much more easily. next on the agenda: get down to country services road and take advantage of some free mulch. i plan to mulch the heck out of several places around this house.

i never got a call back from the recruiter after wednesday. several people have told me not to worry, although i am. they won’t change their minds after offering me the job, would they? i hope not. the whole prospect is exciting, i could learn so much there.

i’ve been neglecting some personal relationships, and to those people i’m sorry. i’ll be talking to all of you soon. i’ll be out of this slump and all will be well.

i have and exam to study for and some projects to start researching. so i leave with a final parting note; Serenity opens Friday, we’re getting a bunch of people together and don’t forget your brown coat!

Current Mood: snuffy nobse

so i realize i haven’t posted in a while. to be honest i just haven’t felt like it. even though i’m out of work at the moment i stay busy. lots of things to be done around the house, and lately i’ve taken to writing letters and postcards to friends. a good bit of it inspired by this post-card circle that someone started on the World’s End message board. the other bit was inspired by my friend Amanda giving me insanely cute stationary.

ok, so i stopped this to come back to it later. it turns out i might not be out of work much longer. i’m doing salary negotiation right now and i’m excited.

bailong has decided the little ones need to learn how to hunt. i’ve been finding dead moles in various places in the house. not too bad, except that the other day felicity brought one to me and plopped it down on the desk next to my keyboard.

EEEEK!!!!

ok, i’m normally not that squeamish, but unexpected dead animals brought to me by two year olds tends to shake my constitution.

i’m tired and i’m yawning, but i can’t seem to get past the first stage of trying to go to sleep. *yawn* see, there i go again.

we were suppose to go to my parents’ house today and give mom her belated birthday present. however, she called and said that the house is completely torn apart right now with dad trying to fix their water leakage. the kids were very dissapointed that they couldn’t go, which i meant to call mom and tell her, but it got late.

simon is in the “why this” and “what does that mean” stage. he asks these questions even when he already knows the answer.

why does it rain?
why is the sky blue?
why does the sun go away and come back again?
what do cats eat? dogs? humans? bears? monsters?
do ghosts eat? what does “imaginary” mean?
are we real?

well, i don’t know if we are real or not, but all of my senses tell me this is so. felicity, that dear sweet girl, she is definately a girl. wants her hair done up, wants her nails painted, gotta have that dress on and then go out and run around and get dirty with her big brother.

part of me doesn’t want a job right away because i want to spend time with the kids. i’d like to take a trip across country, but school isn’t really allowing for that. still, maybe later.

i think its time i slept.

Current Mood:  sleepy

i have a quiet morning for once. Ilanka was kind enough to watch the kids for a few hours last night before my mother-in-law got off work to pick them up so that daecon and i could have our one night a month off. i started a new character last night at AIT. it was fun.

i have things to do. homework being the most important of them at the moment, but i want my goofing out of the way off first. i’ve been catching up on my blogs and reading some news. i can’t say i like what i’m seeing these days. lots of ugly things are coming to light about the current administration. i write my letters, cast my votes, and go through my closet for old clothes to donate. i’ve volunteered my time for answering phones for refugees looking for family. they have yet to get back to me. i’ll try emailing/calling them again soon.

outside of that, i am just thankful that i have a roof over my head, food in my kitchen, and a family to come home to. i’m thankful that i don’t have to worry about neighboring tribes trying to burn my village, or religious zealots keeping my kids from getting vaccinations. i do not take my voice and my freedoms for granted, and i am hoping that maybe, just maybe this disaster will shake millions of people out of their daze.

Current Mood:  hopeful

i was elated yesterday to be finally be done with all the paper work of leaving my old employer. today after class i have a completely different feeling. i am suddenly overwhelmed. so distracted i have been that i have let so many things fall to the way-side. i’ve ignored relationships, household responsibilities, and myself. i’ve been losing and misplacing items on a daily basis, something i am unaccustomed to doing.

i found myself walking out of the student center wanting to sit down and cry, wanting to go home and crawl into daecon’s arms and have a pity party. i even called him. “no,” he said, “do what you need to get done and come back to me with a clear head.”

i love him.

so going to class during the day, i am with all the young right-out-of-high-school types and the age difference shows at times. so inexperienced these younglings are that even though i know i am not really that old, i feel it. mostly i’ve found myself talking to the international students. that, and i get along with my professors more than my classmates.

that aside, i’ve gotten some of this out of my head. i’ve sent a few follow-up emails to the people from the job fair, i have a second interview with another company i’d love to work for (talked about that before). oh, and i have an appointment with the career counceling center here in one hour. so, my 15 minutes of slack time is up. now i study.

Current Mood: plodding along one step at a time

never try to write an essay of 250 -500 words at the last minute while still tipsy from the “i am now officially unemployed” drinking celebration.

Current Mood:  annoyed

i’m fucking bored out of my skull, but you know what? i’m getting paid double time for it and its the last day i ever have to work at this place. once upon a time i thought this might be a great place to work, but now i’m just over it and they can go stuff a large cucumber up their collective… nevermind.

i’m feeling much less anxious about finding another job.

ok, so my boss said i can go home now. w00t!

firesmith is heading to new orleans. i’m worried and glad for him at the same time, since this is something that he wants and needs to do.

i wish him well.