so the kids ended up spending the night with grandma debbie last night. she was just going to have one of them spend the night, but instead both stayed. i guess they gave her puppy dog eyes or something. either way, i got almost a full eight hours of uninterrupted sleep and a quiet morning, which i think was the best medicine i could get. i needed it.
i’m feeling the affects of stress and apathy on my body, and i’m not happy with what its doing. i was doing well with my eating habits and excercise for a while there. i need to face my money situation. its fixable, i’m just scared of it right now. i don’t like feeling under the gun. let’s see, i need to do my resume up and actually start applying for jobs. my bosses and my husbands seem convinced i shouldn’t have a problem finding one. we’ll see.
i’ve been skimming the news pages again, and there is so much political hubbub that my head is spinning. The Supreme Court Nomination, the CIA leak, Iraq, HP laying off 14k workers, London Bombings, Genocide #325 on the African contienent, Supreme Court ruling that about seizing land for public access… and the list goes on.
in a world of satellite communications and the internet, get the news, get it now, get it fast. bad news sells, and the good is reserved for 5 minute spots on 60 minutes. I wonder what would happen if one day we woke up and found that nothing interesting is happening. “nothing to see here, move along”
i think we’d die of withdrawal.
the world hasn’t really gone crazy, we just have instant access and more people. ever stood in the middle of a busy city and just let all the senses run together as one. the sights, sounds, smells, tastes, and touch of the whole thing turns into one loud humming noise and if you dissassociate yourself enough, you can hear the ohm beneath.
have you ever done this on a mountaintop, forest, valley, or field? have you ever done this at all?
i want to take big bites out of life and i think my biggest fear is i might miss something. i want to see the world, and i want to take my family with me. i want to know that somehow my life has deeply affected other’s in a good way. i want to think that i’ll be remembered with fondness when i am gone.
its 11 o’clock and i’m going home now.
Current Mood: strange