*pout*
so… i’m stuck at work on a saturday evening while at home i have a house full of people. its not that work is bad right now, its just BORING.
and something else that has been needling me. my grandmother is ill. i hadn’t posted about it before, i wanted to make sure that family knew before i said anything in a public forum. her body is not producing hemoglobin and they can’t figure out why. they’ve tried every test that can think of, and the doctors have gone on a search for things more esoteric and rare. she’s had a blood transfusion and that has helped.
problem is, my grandmother has been healthy all her life. no more than the occasional cold. she’s not taking her extreme fatigue and inability to do anything very well. unlike my grandfather that died just a few months ago, i really liked her. she spent as much time as she could with me, even though we were hundreds of miles away. mom says we’re a lot alike in many ways. oh, and it doesn’t help that mom is very upset by this.
on top of that, dad is not in very good health. he’s having to take odd jobs here and there to make ends meet. i wish i could help them, i really do. as i’ve told my husband “about the only thing i can do is make sure that we take care of ourselves”. but, dad’s been told “if you go back to work, you’re going to kill yourself”. well, mom can’t really work, she’s having a harder and harder time just moving around and dad has to take care of her.
on the up side, i ordered a few rare herbs today from california to complement the every day variety i’m going to get from a local nursery. gardening helps me ground (literally) and clear my head.