ladykatza

so… i’m stuck at work on a saturday evening while at home i have a house full of people. its not that work is bad right now, its just BORING.

and something else that has been needling me. my grandmother is ill. i hadn’t posted about it before, i wanted to make sure that family knew before i said anything in a public forum. her body is not producing hemoglobin and they can’t figure out why. they’ve tried every test that can think of, and the doctors have gone on a search for things more esoteric and rare. she’s had a blood transfusion and that has helped.

problem is, my grandmother has been healthy all her life. no more than the occasional cold. she’s not taking her extreme fatigue and inability to do anything very well. unlike my grandfather that died just a few months ago, i really liked her. she spent as much time as she could with me, even though we were hundreds of miles away. mom says we’re a lot alike in many ways. oh, and it doesn’t help that mom is very upset by this.

on top of that, dad is not in very good health. he’s having to take odd jobs here and there to make ends meet. i wish i could help them, i really do. as i’ve told my husband “about the only thing i can do is make sure that we take care of ourselves”. but, dad’s been told “if you go back to work, you’re going to kill yourself”. well, mom can’t really work, she’s having a harder and harder time just moving around and dad has to take care of her.

on the up side, i ordered a few rare herbs today from california to complement the every day variety i’m going to get from a local nursery. gardening helps me ground (literally) and clear my head.

so daecon says the interview went well. its a staffing company, and apparently they like him and are going to try and find something. the lady says she’s pretty sure she has a match and is trying to setup a phone interview. if all goes well, he’ll be doing that instead of the week long conferance.

i just hope it works out.

i ended up coming into work late today. it was multiple reasons.

when i left to go to work, simon said “wait, i have to give you something”
so he picks up his light-up dagger and said, “take this with you.”
i asked, “why do i need this simon?”
simon said, “because you might need it”

oh.. ok. it made me smile. he’s such a sweet and intelligent boy, but sometimes just sooo serious. and overnight it seems that felicity just started talking in full sentences. i listend to the two of them have conversations with each other and it keeps me smiling. i wanted to stay home today and just hug my kids. *sigh*

the majority of the jelly that jennifer and i made came out very liquid-y. i think i’m going to dump it all back out into a vat and cook it for a while to see if i can get it to firm up.

i think the weather and the missing of my kids is making me very bitchy at the moment. or it could be hormones, being female i am often plauged by them.

my hubby, right as the unemployment was running out got a call for a phone interview for a temp job at a conferance doing tech stuff. during the course of the conversation, he was asked to come in for an interview for another position that’s more permanent.

*dances around*

all good thoughts, prayers, and stuff and things are greatly welcome and appreciated.

the following is something that i wrote for a character at AIT

it has been three long years since my beloved left me. three years of my life that have crawled by. i’ve filled my days with research; consoling myself with dusty tomes, microfilm and the hum of computers. my master sends me orders in an almost absentminded fashion. three years must seem like a blink when one is immortal. to the young and short-lived, it is an eternity. and an eternity twice again when pining for lost love, a love that only once acknowledged your existence.

i am a pawn, a resource wrapped up in an attractive package. i can research anything, find the smallest detail, link together great conspiracies. i have brought down many, letting others take the credit. i look good on your arm, quiet and docile.

i was a gift to my beloved, to pay a debt as a show of good faith. they turned on him, he was too big… too powerful and they drove him away.
i was forgotten by Bron Giovoni and now i have only my master, Simon St. Croix.

i am Anita, the Unseen

so, i re-vamped the style-sheet on my blog. now to make a homepage, or do a re-direct of somesort. *sigh* this could be interesting. i want to get my poetry, pictures, and other writing up on-line.

and i found out that GimpShop is really cool and FREE!

slowly but surely its coming along.

i went out for a brief moment this morning to survey my handi-work in the yard. my ferns are happy in their new location, the flowers doing well in the outside containers. as i’m watching, i see a humming bird darting back and forth. i hold my breath and stand very, very still. it comes flying toward me and darts all around my legs making tiny chirping noises. it flies a little higher and i can see and hear the wings and little tiny chirping noises. it was a beautiful irridecent green and gold color. after a minute of hovering in front of me it flew away.

this made me happy, up until the refried jesus crispies came walking down the driveway.

i got a great many things accomplished this weekend that i’ve been wanting to accomplish. i feel better for it in that respect.

i have a great many more things that are worrying me, but who wants to hear about my problems (other than my husband)?

my dreams are strange, and some people are acting strangly.

stoicaly going into work when you have bronchitis does not make you a hero (and risks other people getting sick and putting yourself in the hospital).

i’m anxious for school to start so i can feel like all the changes and effort i’ve been making are worth my time.

“family is where they have to take you in when you have no place else to go”

gardening and canning, preserving, and other domestic arts make me happy when i see the end product.

i forgot my glasses and now my head hurts badly. *whimpers*

so i’m on my new schedule and i have to say that the first hours before my 4 o’clock lunch are quick, but the 6 hours afterward drag by something fierce. i’ve been using the idle time to do research on herbs i can plant in my yard with all its wonderful shade (said with a mild sarcasm) and studying for my ccna. in my research for herbs, i found a site that has Belladona, and its VERY pretty. if i didn’t have to worry about kids and animals… ah, well.

so, for the first time this morning we actually got felicity to BITE into a grape. before that she thought they were little things to play with and stuff into other things, or spit on the floor. after several stubborn minutes of us telling her to actually chew one, she did in a petulant manner and then her eyes got REALLY BIG and she grinned. now we have no more grapes left in the house.

ok, so after a ton of IP’s being blocked by my hosting company and some plugins to block open proxy and other spam comment tricks, i think i may have gotten it down to a managable problem. now i just need to get the rest of my webpage organized, in order, and semi-pretty looking.