here i am again, wanting to write something and not being able to. so, instead, i’ll graffiti the internet with my rhetoric.
i have realized that i get very bitchy if i go to long without an orgasm. i use to be so uptight and stressed all the time and even though i would enjoy the motions of love making, for the longest time i could never truly get satisfaction.
it wasn’t his fault, either. it was mine for not relaxing, communicating, for thinking that he could read my mind (the whole ‘pregnant’ possibility was an issue too. now that i don’t have to worry about that, its much easier). i realize now that that is not an uncommon problem, and not just with women. our society still breeds so much contempt for our own bodies. it makes us feel bad about it, that we have to live up to an ideal, and that to pleasure ourselves and finding pleasure with others is BAD (guilt GOOD, sex BAD. don’t believe the hype).
*this train of thought interrupted by life*