ladykatza

so last night i went with my husband up to a small town called rockmart, ga to go to a family bonfire and hayride. there was lots of candy and picknick food and plenty of old people. it was fun with a few hitches. first one, they forgot the hay and the trailer. well, they remedied the trailor part, but apparently coming up with hay (even in the country) on short notice is not an easy thing. so, we piled into the trailer without the hay and the kids had a good time anyway.

now, the second thing (and this is only a hitch for me), was the fact that it was a bonfire and there was no drumming and no dancing people. its seemed wrong somehow. i kept wondering off into the night air out of reach of the light to hug myself and wish it was my bonfire and my friends. daecon and i left relatively early with felicity and left simon with his grandmother to run and be rough with his cousins.

when we got home we tried sitting down and watching “the big lebowski”. i got about 2/3rds they way through it before i had to turn it off. several of the characters were just annoying me and i was tired. so, we retired to the bedroom and went to sleep a while later. it was then i woke up to feel bailong batting at something on my bed inbetween my legs (oh.. stop snickering). i tried kicking at the covers to knock the cat off and i felt something hit my arm and scurry. EEEK!!! ok, that’s it. i got up and turned the lights on (much to my husband’s displeasure) and proceeded to dismantle the bedsheets and everything. i kept praying it wasn’t some huge spider. we found nothing so i went back to sleep after chasing bailong out of the bedroom since she was still attacking the foot of the bed. we chased her out and went back to sleep.

so, after getting to work i get an IM from my hubby telling me that there was in fact a mouse and it was hiding under the chair and has now been evicted.

it was nice this week and i decided to take my lunches outside. finished reading “american gods” by neil gaiman and started a new book by a relativaly new author kim harrison. the second book is “dead witch walking” (yes, i know this sounds trite) and is really a lot of fluff. not bad fluff, but good fluff…

tuesday as i was getting up and clearing my spot from the table a gentleman sitting at the next table over asked me if the book “american gods” was any good. we got into a discussion then about neil gaiman and 50’s science fiction and the subject turned to one of my favorite authors robert heinlein. i started rattling off all the different books i had read until i was interrupted with the question “where did you graduate from college?” i shyly admitted that i never actual graduated, i just read a lot. however, that question was one of the nicest compliments i have had in a while and it made me smile for the rest of the week.

well, due to the sudden deluge of postings by advertisers to my blog, i have had to change the permissions. now, if you want to be able to post, you need to register first. since i shouldn’t be getting that much traffic at the moment, i will think of something shortly to allow people i don’t know to contact me for the “sign me up” action.

its a sunny and chill saturday morning with light jazz and chirping birds. oh, and the occasional screams of children fighting and the crash of mixing bowls getting dropped down the stairs. quiet, really, for one of my typical mornings.

i went out with a friend last night and he treated me to a very nice dinner at a japanese steak house. i actually got to sit in front of the grill for the first time in my life. it was wonderful to be able to watch them cook fried rice. i now have a much better idea of how to make it and that will make daecon very happy.

and speaking of something to make me happy, i want to take a class on how to make sushi rolls. i kinda figured it out on my own, it was passable but not nearly as tasty. the whole egg thing i think was what confused me.

alright, i have to get to work and do some laundry and vacuuming. ta ta for now!

here i am again, wanting to write something and not being able to. so, instead, i’ll graffiti the internet with my rhetoric.

i have realized that i get very bitchy if i go to long without an orgasm. i use to be so uptight and stressed all the time and even though i would enjoy the motions of love making, for the longest time i could never truly get satisfaction.

it wasn’t his fault, either. it was mine for not relaxing, communicating, for thinking that he could read my mind (the whole ‘pregnant’ possibility was an issue too. now that i don’t have to worry about that, its much easier). i realize now that that is not an uncommon problem, and not just with women. our society still breeds so much contempt for our own bodies. it makes us feel bad about it, that we have to live up to an ideal, and that to pleasure ourselves and finding pleasure with others is BAD (guilt GOOD, sex BAD. don’t believe the hype).

*this train of thought interrupted by life*

felicity is down for a nap, and simon is playing one of his computer learning games. i just ate a caramel ho-ho and am currently going into sugar shock. *has jitters now* i managed to pick up and vacuum the kids’ rooms. i rearranged simon’s, i like the lay-out much better. i still have to tackle the bathroom *shudders*, its not going to be pretty.

i had been thinking about family and friends a lot recently, and the things that i went through to get where i am today. there are lots of things in my past i would prefer to forget that i ever did. i look back and go “what the HELL was i thinking?”

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i started this post friday and never finished it, a busy life does that sort of thing to you. one of the things i find rather daunting right now is the number of books on my list to read. the new laurel k. hamilton book is out, and bonnie keeps bringing me more vampire and other psuedo fantasy trash romance novels. i’m sorta mad, because i thought they were a great idea and wanted to cash in on it first.

daecon had taken wednesday and thursday off and traded days with the kids with debbie. this was so we could have thursday together to just be lazy and lounge in each other’s company. didn’t happen that way.. NOOOO. his boss called him into a meeting on the other side of town. said it would be quick. fine, i went with him and the meeting took 3 HOURS. i was so mad. by the time he got out i was feeling woozy from being overly warm and hungry and i thought i was going to go postal on him.

we were suppose to go to AIT last night, but ended up not going due to our babysitter (read: mother in law) got back too late. so, instead we sat and had a lovely dinner that i prepared and played settlers of catan. the kids were happy to see steve, jen, and Pain. felicity, as usual, was following Pain around, or sitting in his lap, or getting jealous when he paid attention to simon. i still went to bed way to late and i’m feeling it right now.

i’m going to go get some crappy coffee from the break room now.