ladykatza

i stayed home today. i’ve been feeling very sluggish and tired since this weekend anyway, and this morning i woke up bloated, cramping, and a bad back ache. i decided to stay home and sleep. i dropped the kids off, came home and slept about 5 hours. its exactly what i needed.

i’m still rather depressed, but with no real explanation as to why. whenever i have downtime, this is how i feel. i think i try to stay as busy as possible because idleness lets the melencholy seep in. i just go and go until exhaustion requires me to collapse. but then, its that melencholy place that i most often end up writing from. busy and happy, or depressed and creative? tough choice that…